You and me together, yeah I feel the power. Found her hidden in the weeds, yeah, my beauty flower.
Red orange, yellow, green, I'm a legend, Thanos

"Before I got here, things were so rough, I was gonna jump off the Han River Bridge. Actually, I was there when this man wearing a suit gave me a business card"

"I...LIKE YOU!"

*   BIOGRAPHY,

Choi Ha-neul was born an accident on the 9th of feburary, 2004 in deagu, south korea.born to mother, Kang Seon-hee and father Choi Hyun-seok. she was rasied by her father as her mother left when she was two years old.her father, hyun-seok was a intimidating and powerful man. leader of a well known gang that took part in raids and murders. ha-neul didnt really know much about the gang. other than the fact one of her dads gang members, deok-su? had a kid too. roughly around the same age.ha-neul loved music as a kid. inspired by lots of rappers and idols. she used to love collecting action figures and comic books that unfortunately were burnt and thrown away by her father.ha-neul knew she wasnt like the other girls in her grade. she knew she was different from the moment she gained awareness. it started small. researching and finding..people like her. people who felt like..her. it wasnt until ha-neul found the word. transgender.growing up in her teenage years, she was quite rebellious. always getting into trouble with police. shoplifting, robbery, harassing police. she was a wild child. always doing something. visiting numerous house parties, ha-neul watched her first rap battle. two guys she didnt really know-nor cared for. the two of them were in the living room, spitting bars over the sound of bass boosted music.she was quite the stubborn person. she was intrigued. yet it'll always stick with her. the word some random drunk guy said to her."girls cant do rap. i don't even know why you're here."oh how she'd prove that guy wrong.she decided to start an underground rap career. something small to pass time. to dive into her hobbies. she adopted the stage name "thanos." hiding herself behind caps, oversized tshirts the ability to make her voice lower and face masks.'thanos' was an underground rapper with great skill. the ability to create amazing lyrics that have deep meanings over shitty beats. thanos didnt care. they just wanted to do what they loved. music.it started small. opting to buy jeans and pants instead of dresses and skirts. buying one size too small sports bra to flatten her chest. she cut her hair, she changed her name. she..he became more happier.thanos decided to adopt the new name su-bong. why? he thought it was funny. a bong-get it?it was a bit..hard to hide this self of himself- especially around his father. the man wouldn't be at home that much, but when he did. it was like threading on egg shells.
the man often blamed su-bong for everything. his mother left? that was his fault. hyun-seok was a father? thats su-bongs fault. everything was su-bongs fault and it showed.
lacking the parental figure in his life meant that thanos' didnt have much of a connection to his dad. it was more like living with a roommate.coming out to his father must've been the worst decision thanos has ever made, yet the best one as well. he will never forget the words his father said to him. the scars that litter his body because of it. the distant fear always settling within his stomach.the boy was homeless shortly after that. the 17 year old being kicked out by his father. part oh su-bong was glad he was gone from his father, but the other part was upset- hurt and betrayed.su-bong wasnt no quitter. he would sleep in his car for days on end. sneak his way into mcdonalds and sleep in the toilets. he would even go lengths to even sell his body for a hotel room.su-bong ended up making his way to seoul from deagu. meeting a boy called namgyu who worked in a bar called club pentagon. he offered su-bong a slot for an open mic session. that was the start of their...journey?su-bong and namgyu grew closer after that. namgyu giving a share of pills and needles to su-bong which got him addicted. the two of them became a duo. wherever namgyu is, su-bong isnt that far away.su-bong took comfort in namgyu and his presence. seeming like the first person to accept the boy for who he was. sticking with him as he gained more popularity from people. su-bong often slept over and crashed at namgyus place in return for some drugs that su-bong would get from a junkie dealer he befriended one night. he became the mans loyal customer.sleeping on namgyus couch was pretty sore. the pain in his back was evident, even if it was for a short time. su-bong managed to come up with a bit of money to get himself a small apartment in the same complex as namgyu on the 8th floor. a place for himeself to call home.but it didnt last that long. he found himself growing depressed. mixing with the wrong people, going out drinking every night. gaining new drugs and adding them to his collection. he ended up overdosing one night in a bar and was rushed to hospital. the hospital bill was too..much. but su-bong knew if he paid it, he wouldnt have money for his rent.he decided to invest some of his money into a crypto currency scene by one of his favourite youtubers hes been watching for a while. while someone is desperate for something, theyll go through lenghts to get it. and su-bong was desperate for money. he needed money for rent, for his addiction. it seemed like luck wasnt on his side as the crypto failed.that meant he lost his money- he lost everything. he lost his apartment. club pentagon blackisted him.. he still didnt know why. the boy had nothing but the clothes on his back and the familiar car that he used to call home.sleeping in his car was back to being the norm again. surviving cold nights and late night withdrawls. the boy decided enough was enough. he got out of his car one familiar september day and walked to the bridge.he didnt have much to live for anyway. he lost everything.
that is until a familiar man dressed in a suit and tie met the boy at the bridge and asked if he wanted to play a game.

*   HEADCANONS,

- thanos is ftm trans. he has not have any surgery yet. wears a binder most of the time.- doesn’t want people knowing so he keeps it a secret. especially because he’s not fully transitioned yet.- thanos is a switch.- he is homeless. kicked out by his dad when he came out as gay & trans. he would spend his nights in his car / at the bar / at namgyus place.- he’s never had a boyfriend / gf nor had his first kiss. he just likes to say it to one up people.- he’s lowkey fluent in english- a fan of T.O.P & gdragon. (iykyk)- used to collect action figures then his father threw them out.- turned to drugs to use as an escape from his fathers abuse.- has no siblings- his mother left when he was 2.- lowkey has a sweet tooth- is suicidal, depressed. has anxiety & dyscalculia.- has never celebrated his birthday before- his favourite food is tteokbokki- his favourite animals are wolves- he developed a stutter from when he was younger & his father would give out to him.- he’s lowkey scared if people raise their voice at him.- suffers with a lot of internal emotions. not being good enough, being a failure.- believes he was put on his earth just to love and suffer, rather than be loved.- lowkey a hopeless romantic- uses humour to cope.- broke his arm cus he flung himself off the bunk to get the drugs namgyu stole from him.- he wants to make friends but he has abandonment issues. he pushes people away because it hurts less to be a dick than grow attached.- he’s dyscalculic so he can’t do maths.- lowkey wants to work in a coffee shop.- he’s autistic. cus i said so. his favourite stim is fiddling with his rings & swaying back to forth.- secretly a fan of kpop. (bts, big bang. won’t say it tho)- massive gamer. loves video games.- little spoon. he’s sensitive okay
- he’s also a big softie.- likes to experiment with his gender. makeup? sure he’ll try it out. skirts? hell fucking yeah.- he prefers men over women. is bisexual but just says gay.- favourite flowers are daisys and tulips.- has two cats called nari and stitches that jun-ho gave him.- hes quite hard of hearing from gunshotsmore headcanons will be added ovetyime

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